Sumthin's gotta give

Haven't posted in forever. Though I've thought about it time after time for the past 6 months, life grabs ahold and never lets go. Things have been crazy. Seriously. Starting MiJee consumed me for 4 months.

I'm working for an independent insurance agent answering the phone M-F. I have a business cell he transfers calls to me. I have also been working on spreadsheets for him. I thought this would be a much quicker process than it is. I literally cannot find time to work on them during the day. This leaves me the evening after bedtime. So by the time the girls are in bed, it's 9:30 when I get started. I work on them til my eyes can't stay open any longer and my neck, shoulders and back are hurting. Oh, and I had to learn HOW to make a spreadsheet all over again since it's been like 15 years.

I wish I could sit and work on MiJee and Bugg & Bean Boutique during the day too, but if I do, I feel guilty for making Karis go play by herself or watch a movie. She is starting to get a bit of an attitude and I can't help but wonder if this is due to lack of attention from me as I try to catch up on everything...which is a never ending battle.

Austin never gets home at any sort of normal time. It's usually while I'm reading books to the girls just before bedtime. This makes it very difficult for me to have any sort of "me" time. Weekends are always full, and if a day is not, I always feel like it should be family time since the girls don't get to see Austin throughout the week much. Where's the balance? How do people do it? I wonder if every mother feels the way I do. I feel like I do so much, and yet, don't get much accomplished. How do I get everything done & do it well, raise my children, run my business, work for someone else, do hair, etc. all while keeping my sanity???

On another note, today is Karis' 4th birthday. I wanted to do something special for her instead of buying toys and such. So I thought it would be a grand idea to book her and a friend of her choice to go to the salonspa and get their fingernails and toenails painted and their hair done in pretty curls or whatever they want. She loved it of course and walked around afterwards like a little prissy thing. We get home and after a while I notice both big toes have no polish on them. I asked what happened and she had picked it off! I had a conversation with her about not picking off her pretty polish because it was a special gift. She's 4, she doesn't care.

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!!!